wow.. arrived at work today at 8am. been awake since 630am.. anyway.. 9:00pm little baby was crying.. she was feel asleep and woke up at 1am.. I fed her.. still would'nt sleep.. damn I was crying already from being so tired.. because on that day, went to work early.. and up until 1.. still wasn't sleeping.. worried about the a**ole baby daddy.. man can't even have the decency to let me know wussup.. talking about his on his way home (a phone call at 9:40pm), almost an hour later (11:20 pm).. said yea his almost home it's 1am already.. still not home.. baby crying.. im tired.. I need to sleep.. no help.. she finally went to sleep.. i finally stopped crying and went to sleep..
I was having these really bad wierd dreams... its so scary.. im just at home by myself with the baby-no sign of txt or phone call from the baby daddy.. went back to sleep.. had a continuation of the scary a** dream again.. wow im glad i am able to still go back to sleep.. of course I prayed not to have another scary dream again.. (cus i remember back then.. when I was a bit younger when I used to have dreams like that.. Id be soo scared... I wouldnt even want to go back to sleep..just plainly scared) Anyway then she cried again.. woke up to make her a bottle.. after eating she didnt go back to sleep right away.. which is weird usually she'd sleep while drinking.. but I was so tired just turned my back on her and slept again.. still no sign.. woke up again still no sign.. Woke up at 630 still no sign, fed her.. she smiled at me.. I talked to her.. I said goodmorning.. Gosh.. I just love that smile.. she's acting like she's talking to me smiling again..
baby daddy finally got home at 730.. damn what a b**ch
Now im here at work sipppin on this coffee hoping to relieve my tired eyes...
